...SiqueCountry...

...a world filled with depth of thought and simple (or complex) silliness...kids, men (loved and lost), school, work, play, politics, religion, anime (and hentai), cartoons and video games; private thoughts and public rants...welcome.

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A woman ahead of her time and for all time...I come before you strangely familiar...mother, former wife, friend, future wife, daughter...i shoot straight by way of riddles and can make boiling water a exercise of physics...carry a conversation from ed, edd and eddie to la blue girl, NFL to NRA, Jesus to Judas and everything in between. I'm an observer, and though I try not to judge I don't regret doing it...I listen with sincerity and very little shocks me...but many things surprise me. Let me entertain you, bored you, insult you, encourage you, make you laugh, make you think, make you cry, make you curse, and make you...well, let me tell you my story, a post at a time...

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

I was born on the same date as this man....and knowing that makes me happy.






"If you could only sense how important you are to the lives of those you meet; how important you can be to the people may never even dream of. There is something of yourself that you leave at every meeting with another person"


34


another year, dear reader....


and wow what a year....it was lovely and it made me so strong...it was wicked and it tried to torture me and beat the shit out of me.
it broke me.
but what came forth was flexible. liquid. stronger and free flowing.
brighter and happier.
now if only i could find a disposal large enough for the shell
Sunny Side Up,
Sique


Thursday, March 15, 2007

the anatomy of a f*ck up

There might not be a time when i can say that i haven't messed up at one time or another....

it's just today is worse than others....

and its funny...i'm in a particularly good mood and things seem to going swimmingly...

then i cuss live on the air...with a client hearing me, no less...

wow...if you never hear me again, you'll know why

sh*t, damn,mutherf*cker!
Sique

a new place to be....

I thought that I wouldn't need to write anymore because my life was falling into line.


  • at the time Trout was understanding that what we had was over and can actually speak to Jinge without balling a fist
  • The Girls were getting along and they were on the road to becoming teens
  • The light of the tunnel when it came to school was nearly over
  • Jinge asked me to marry him

Then the panic began....and along with it came the trouble:

  • Moe started failing in school, stealing and causing trouble.
  • Tae, having changed to a new school, started getting depressed
  • We had to move to a new apartment, last minute with no money
  • I decided to get my Bachelor's Degree

Just when you think all is fine, you start to lose pieces of your life....you start to lose your place in it....

But what is really happening is that you're finding a new place to be. A new place to to fill up and round out the concept of who you are and where you are going:

  • You're going to mourn where you were and celebrate the friend who lasted through one of the darkest parts of your shared life.
  • You are going to see the most precious people in your life try to make their place in the world and define who they are.
  • Not holding on to the things that defined you, but your everlasting ability to adapt to all circumstances and through pure gumption spin it to your benefit.
  • To accept that the man who loves more than any man has ever, ever loved you may not be able to shout it off the highest mountain, but will show it every day and will never leave your side, no matter how crazy it gets....a man whose happiness is in direct proportion to your own.

it's a very easy trap to laze about and cry about the lose of your old place in life....

but it is a time of joy when you can celebrate you new place to be.