a new place to be....

I thought that I wouldn't need to write anymore because my life was falling into line.

• at the time Trout was understanding that what we had was over and can actually speak to Jinge without balling a fist
• The Girls were getting along and they were on the road to becoming teens
• The light of the tunnel when it came to school was nearly over
• Jinge asked me to marry him

Then the panic began....and along with it came the trouble:

• Moe started failing in school, stealing and causing trouble.
• Tae, having changed to a new school, started getting depressed
• We had to move to a new apartment, last minute with no money
• I decided to get my Bachelor's Degree

Just when you think all is fine, you start to lose pieces of your life....you start to lose your place in it....

But what is really happening is that you're finding a new place to be. A new place to to fill up and round out the concept of who you are and where you are going:

• You're going to mourn where you were and celebrate the friend who lasted through one of the darkest parts of your shared life.
• You are going to see the most precious people in your life try to make their place in the world and define who they are.
• Not holding on to the things that defined you, but your everlasting ability to adapt to all circumstances and through pure gumption spin it to your benefit.
• To accept that the man who loves more than any man has ever, ever loved you may not be able to shout it off the highest mountain, but will show it every day and will never leave your side, no matter how crazy it gets....a man whose happiness is in direct proportion to your own.

it's a very easy trap to laze about and cry about the lose of your old place in life....

but it is a time of joy when you can celebrate you new place to be.