the way things have to be

i cried for what felt like three or four weeks.

my life felt as if it was blowing away; every attempt to to reach out and grab for it felt futile.

my girls were fighting, at each others throats, refusing to listen and failing to do as I say...

school was driving me mad; the lessons are harder this time around and I feel that even though the change of major would help in the long run...it feels like trudging through knee deep mud today.

i left behind my dreams of being a filmmaker for security once again *sighs and shakes head*

and I can't find a car still.

but for now, there isn't another way to get through to my goals except this way.

*shit!*