...SiqueCountry...

...a world filled with depth of thought and simple (or complex) silliness...kids, men (loved and lost), school, work, play, politics, religion, anime (and hentai), cartoons and video games; private thoughts and public rants...welcome.

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A woman ahead of her time and for all time...I come before you strangely familiar...mother, former wife, friend, future wife, daughter...i shoot straight by way of riddles and can make boiling water a exercise of physics...carry a conversation from ed, edd and eddie to la blue girl, NFL to NRA, Jesus to Judas and everything in between. I'm an observer, and though I try not to judge I don't regret doing it...I listen with sincerity and very little shocks me...but many things surprise me. Let me entertain you, bored you, insult you, encourage you, make you laugh, make you think, make you cry, make you curse, and make you...well, let me tell you my story, a post at a time...

Sunday, July 31, 2005

a function of friendship....

being a friend means a lot to me...it's a loyalty issue, especially for someone like me, a having sort of girl that can be hard to get long with at times...

but there are some who stick by as I tend to lock myself away while in the midst of this dark portion of my life...

thank you...

thank you for not forgeting about me and

thank you for letting me have my space while I figure things out and

thank you for loving me in spite of myself and

my moods and

my insecurity and

my changing goals, dreams and whims.

thank you

thank you

thank you

Sique

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

wex and wewaxation


"Sleep" by Salvador Dali...
...it looks how I have felt for the last few months...


be wary, wary quiet...

I'm getting some rest...

after a fall at work that messed up my wrist and the fact that I had to call Jinge at 4:30 am to cheer me on to go to a job I didn't like all that anyway, I did the honorable thing...I quit.

no worries, I 've got enough to live off of until the next job.

and the bill are paid so all I have to do is sleep and get all the homework caught up.

and maybe dream...

after I've played some guild wars.

Thursday, July 21, 2005

under the sun...



Somewhere between the ground and the sky is where I am currently...

not grounded but not floating into the cosmos either...

enjoying the lasts weeks until the girls return and making my next move on the "Sique in her Thirties" project...

in other words, enjoying my summer.

this is the first time in a long time that I felt as if I was on summer vacation: I spent a load of time getting up late, worked a bit, went to a load of movies, played Guild Wars for 10 hours at a time, had a romance cool down and heat up...

all kinds of crazy things...now I'mjust figuring out whether or not to just float a little longer...

do I really have to land?

do I REALLY have to be grounded ?

have roots?

stay in one place?

work a full forty hours a week?

put on the cosplay that thousands where called "responsibleadultwhoworksselftodeathmakingbigsalaryandbiggercreditcarddebt"?

don't know...adulthood is nice but it seems so...boring...

and anyway, I'm too busy floating, feeling the warmth of the sun to care...

Monday, July 11, 2005

nothing, nada, zip, zilch....


with the classes and work normalizing, I have got some time to think about what , if anything I'm going to do with the rest of my summer...

hummmm... got it!

absolutely nothing...

for the longest time I believed that to be productive meant that youhad to be achieving some goal...reaching for some prize...running at full force towards something, that one thing, or a bunch of things.

not so.

sometimes nothing can be done, nothing has to be done.

nothing should be done.

being is as good a goal as anything else...enjoying things as they come, without judging or analysing...just being

okay. just being okay.

I'm okay today. the dark journey is far from over, but I have reached the oasis of okay, content in the fact that I have done all I can and now I wait.

wait to save the money for my car...

wait for the girls to come back home....

wait for Trout to move out...

wait for Jinge to cut his hair...(that made me giggle...tee hee)

wait patiently and enjoy being ok.

talk to you soon...

Sique







Monday, July 04, 2005

Guild Wars and other time sucks...

hello, remember me...I used to have a blog here and I was really good about writng to you about how my life was going....

well...sorry i have been away...but I swear i have a really GOOD reason...

Guild Wars

yes, dear reader a MMORPG has sucked what little time I have left over from working 60 hours a week and building a network (MS XP Pro class) writing non stop non fiction (Comp I) and College Math II (all trig....do you smell bacon frying? that's my BRAIN!) for school...

Trout still isn't out of the house...and Jinge parents actually did stay the week over his house...all the proof was there...(much cleaner, they left a recent picture to remind him why he live several hours away, the strange relief on his face when I went over there the night they left...)

Back to Trout for a moment...we decided that we will room together until the end of the year...don't say a word...I done stupider things....

the girls are fine in Cleveland and they will be back in August in time for school...

in other words the more things change, the more they stay the same...

kinda...

Sique